April 3rd, 2008 What a horrible day in Binghamton / MOM Read >>
April 3rd, 2008 What a horrible day in Binghamton / MOM
Hey Bud, Well this site is finally working. I have been so frustrated with it. Grandma i still in the hospital but you already know that. They cant figure out what is wrong with her, she has had so many test, but she is a strong lady. I was on my way home tongiht and decided to turn on the radio just to take my mind of the day, as soon as I did, the song came on "Knocking on Heavens door" I sang along to it and then said Thank you, because at that moment I knew you were with me. Sometimes things like that happen and it makes me smile for a second or two. It was crazy back home today, a man went into a building in Binghamton and started shooting people, he killed 13 innocent people,, then himself. There were tv crews from all over the place, CNN. I dont understand what makes others tick, they have no value of life and dont care. I am so Thankful for you, Aaron and Ryan. I was blessed with you for 21 years and I wouldnt trade that for anything except to have you back. I see guys that remind me of you and it hurts. Did you find Kelly yet?????Her mom is so sad, I want to help her..... Well sunshine hope there is Peace in heaven tonight,,, Close
March 13, 2009 Missing you terribly / MOM
Hey Bud, I havent been able to be on here because the site from my computer hasnt been working. It has been driving me crazy, just not being able to come on here. Not too much has been going on, I had my surgery and finally am feeling ok, or at least alittle better. I was really sick for a couple of weeks. I'm always thinking about you, trying to get the tournament all set up. Been talking to some of your buddies. I talked to a girl from RSU last night, she lived in Lenape hall, her name is Dana. She had some nice memories of you. Its good for me to talk about you. ESU was a big part of you, your college days and all the people you met along the way. This school year seems to be going by fast. So Aaron went to Florida for his spring break, but he is back in Pitt safe and sound. He had a good time, alot of memories for him there with us. He also got a tattoo of a cross with your initials. Its funny how our minds have changed since you have been gone. You were like our leader. Even if you did something wrong, your brothers still looked up to you and always will. There is a bond that noone can ever break, sure there is distance now but the feelings are there. Some sad news, Jessica Bush's mom died yesterday, she was only 44. I have known her for many years, like you knew Jessica. I will never understand why we have to go through these sad times, seems so unfair. Give Grandpa a hug for me. Grandma has been going through some medical things, she is having a test on Monday, so help her!!!!I will write more MOm loves you Bud. Always my son, always my angel Close
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March 1st, 2009 Just me being sad / Mom
Hey bud, Hows moms boy? Today has been a hard day. I sure have my moments. Its the start of another month. That is depressing enough. I wish I could meet all the nice people that light candles for you, I'm sure they know what it means to people like me. See Anthony, you are still touching people even from heaven. They all have angels up there. Heaven must be a huge place. I guess there is no pain, or hurt there, just eternal happiness. I dont understand all of that, because I know you would rather be down here with us. And you surely wouldnt want to see me hurt so much. You hated to see people cry, you always wanted to help them to see what was the matter. You are a soecial kind of a guy, even when you were little you always went with Grandma & Grandpa and played your fiddle with all the older people, you didnt care. You were glad to spend time with them. So many memories, I wish I could transfer my mind on video so that I will never forget all the things about you. People do forget little things and that is so important. Well BUd, Mom loves you from earth to wherever Heaven is. Keep watch over us down here because we sure need you. Peace angel Close
Another day Feb 28th Still telling dana things / Mom Read >>
Another day Feb 28th Still telling dana things / Mom
I truly dont understand why there are people out there in my little town telling Dana things about what i write on here, What the hell is your problem? Mind your own business and leave me out of your conversations with him. You have no reason to come on here, like I said before you certainly dont come on here as a friend to me because then you would leave your name . Get a life. I hope for your sake that this never happens to you or your family, because then I would like to be the one to spead crap about your child. Leave my dead son alone. You are truly a piece of crap as a person, i hope you feel good every time you tell Dana things that you read off here. Be proud of the kind of person that you are. Im sure god is looking over your shoulder and you go to hell when you die. Thanks for sharing this website. Pat Holden Close
Feb 26th Thank you Mrs. Wheeler / MOM
Hey bud, its me mom once again. Today I got a very nice email from Mrs. Wheeler, she has known you boys since you started school. She made me feel good about this website, not that I didnt before, but someone comes on here for all the wrong reasons and she realized that and knows how that makes me feel. This si a place that I treasure, its almost like I talk to you,, well I guess I do and the best part is that I think you are listening to me. Today Is Deb Coniglario's birthday in Heaven, her first one there. I'm sure that her family is having a hard day,, there are lots of those ahead. I hope that you have found her, because she knew you and me and she will look out for you. She is the only mom up there that I know. You were good friends with Kim, so it helps me just thinking that way. I know Vince's birthday is coming up too. So much has happened in these last almost 3 years. Time sure hasn't stopped,, emotions are still pretty raw, some times aren't as bad as others, but boy Anthony some things just knock me on my but. I'm really dreading graduation. But I will make it through that. I know you will be watching from up above, being proud of your little munckin man. You wouldn't believe that he is 18. Wish you were here to share all his moments of growing up. You were always there for him, like a father figure. He knew he could always depend on you and that you would include him in on games with your friends, you never made him feel like a little brother, he was your shadow. Now its the other way around. Well I could go on and on, but I wont....Just know that down here Mom thinks of you all the time and loves you till the end of time. You will always be my son, people ask me how many kids do you have, I dont hesitate and I respond "3" thats forever Bud Close
Feb 25th, 2009 Things are stressful / MOM
Hey Bud, First I dont know what is going on with this site, half the time things are not coming up on here, takes along time to light a candle. Makes me so frustrated. Well my foot is doing ok, it hurts like heck. Can't get around too good but in time it will heal. Some things do heal but not losing you. There is a big difference. Sunday was 7 years that Grandpa has been gone, Were you with him on that day? Grandma had a hard day. Before ya know it the 28th of April will be here. I am starting to work on your tournament. That is a proud thing for me. So many people love you and want to help, just to keep your memory strong as if you were here. They are running electric to your little concession stand. It will get alot of use this spring. Other then that and me being bored and giving me even more time to sit and think, things are ok. Just lonely. I miss you Bud more every single day. Reality is such an ass kicker. Peace my angel Close
Feb 15th, 2009 / MOM
Its only me again. This website is making me mad, half the time the candles dont show up or the tributes. They really need to fix this problem, I guess our site isnt the only one not working. Got alot of work done today around the house. There is so much to do. Soon your tournament will be here. That is such a wonderful thing to have in your memory.People can say what they want about you or me, but you really loved sports and excelled at all of them. You knew the games inside and out. What I would give to have you say "hey MOm' Guess who got traded to this team" or I cant wait to go to a Cuse game. I miss so much about you. I miss you. Today is one of my friends sons angel date, If you know Kalon give him a hug for his mom. He was young too and had a son. There is so much sadness in this world. Well Bud You know how much I love you. I was at the cemetary today. I cant wait for spring so I can clean it up and uncover your bench. I stood there today in disbelief. I really cant understand why you are there in that ground...Im sure you heard me crying....Night angel Close
Well Anthony today is Valentines Day. Not a really happy day here. I am alittle discouraged with some people on the outside that feel the need to come on this site and report things back to Dana. It actually makes me sick to think that someone from Hallstead is that low. This is a website for a 21 year that I as your mom lost to death. If I ever find out who this is they had better watch out. Dana says its someone in my own backyard that even makes it worse. It makes me wonder do I trust anyone with my feelings, I can't even write things on here without it being turned around. Its too bad that he wasn't smart enough on his own to be able to come onto this site. There is so much negativity in this world and people like that are not worth my effort or my friendship, so they should really stay the hell off of here. You dont come on here for me or for Anthony so dont bother. I hope you feel good about yourself whomever you are. Now that my friend comes from my heart. As for you Anthony Mom loves you and always will. I'm so sad that this is happenig, This is my only lifeline to you and others try to ruin things. Something so important to me has to become careful what i write. Very sad.......
Hope God has a Valentine celebration up there for all you and the other angels......
Feb 2nd, Groundhogs day / MOM
Ok so I did it, I got a tattoo honoring you. I would of never thought that I would or could do that, but I feel now things are different, any pain that I have to go through to have your name on me forever is so worth it. You would be shocked. I am so very proud of you and I want the world to know that I love you and miss you. This is just one more way of keeping you close to me. I have had such a sore throat for the last 3 weeks, I can't seem to get rid of it. I remember the day you got your tattoo, you were so excited to show me and the cross and praying hands held a special meaning to you. Ryan went to a bsaketball game and I went to a baseball meeting for your tournament. Its in May. I want it to always be a huge success. They are putting electric to your concession stand. What a honor it is to have that building there with your name on it. I dont know Bud, things are so different now. Still seems unreal and unfair. Well I love you and I will talk to you in the morning. Thanks for the sign I got today in the mail, the cross. I totally got that just when I needed it. Peace tonight angel Close
Thank you for stopping by my sons site and lighting a candle for him, it means the world to me. My heart goes out to you for the loss of your beautiful son. We can only have faith that one sweet day we will all be together again
Well its Feb 1st, I miss you like crazy / MOM Read >>
Well its Feb 1st, I miss you like crazy / MOM
Hey bud, Its superbowl Sunday, Im sure you already know that. You probably have all the angels placing bets up there. It's days like this that I feel so lost without you at home. You were such an athlete and loved al sports, you knew so much about all of them, thats why you wanted to be a sports anoouncer. Are you announcing the game in Heaven? I think Chris and Joe Smith must think of you on days like this. I was on another nagels site alittle while ago, it reminded me of this site. His mom writes to him all the time too and she is really hurting. Ry got his tattoo, it came out nice. He loves you so much always did and always will. I get mine tomorrow. I;'m not sure yet what its gonna be, its hard to decide something that is to be there for ever. As we know forever is along time. I would of never thought I would get one done, but losing you has changed my thoughts on alot of things. It has forever changed ME.......I will never be that person again..In ways I have become stronger, not to say that in a second I can fall to pieces..But at times I wont let people push me around any more. I tell them like it is and if they dont like it, well too bad. You would be glad about that. I mean I always stood up for you kids with school stuff, but in other things I kinda let things slide, not any more..Uncle Dennis is on his way to Iraq, can you believe it? You didnt want anyone going in the service, losing Billy and Lee was very hard on you, now you are with them in Heaven. How life changes...Well my sunshine Mom loves from with all I've got. Always my 1st son.... Close
Almost Feb, getting closer to 3 years / MOM Read >>
Almost Feb, getting closer to 3 years / MOM
I dont know Bud....I havent been on here as much, It makes me mad that the main page of this site is messed up. Im having someone fix it for me. Boy I know time is flying by. There is so much coming up, your tournament, Munchkin graduates. Aaron is going to Florida for spring break with Emily. You really need to keep an eye open for them. Ry gets his tattoo tomorrow, he is very excited and proud. He cant wait to show everyone, you are with him all the time and this proves it. You gave him so much of yourself, especially your love and time. I talked to one fo your friends the other night about you. It did me some good as I think it helped him also.I've been going to some of the boys basketball games, tonight BR plays Mountain View and Lawrence is the coach. So that will bring some memories up for me. I have so many things that go through my head, you are in about every thought that I have. Keeping you close always Anthony. Mom loves her first born so very much. Close
Jan 21, 2008 very cold / MOM
Hey Bud, I guess there is some things going on on this site and others, the company is fixing all the sites. It bothers me to see it all messed up. Im talking to Cody Edwards right now on AOL. He is still in the service and likes it, Ricky just finished basic training. I guess things change. We have our first black president, I could hear you saying, "Thats crazy". Im sure Grandpa is watching everything, he is such a wordly guy and taught you so much. Its very cold at home. I cant wait for spring and get ready for your tournament. Not sure who is going to get your scholarship this year. It will be a hard choice.You would be so proud, especially how people feel about you. Its funny how I get talking about you, just like you were here. I talked to Billy Marvin the other day, you really had alot of respect for him and Harry, and of course their dad helped you many times. Some things make me laugh, some make me sad. I even talked to Jesse Bendicts mom and told her the story on your building. I told her to be very proud of her son. Its funny how our lives paths cross each other in different ways. Well Bud know that even when Im not on here, my mind and heart is always with you. I miss you more then words can say. Love you from earth to where ever heaven is!!!! Close
Jan 10th, this month is going by fast / Mom Read >>
Jan 10th, this month is going by fast / Mom
Miss you more every day Anthony. Still doesn't seem real.Sometimes I just sit and look at a picture and it seems like it was so long ago. Went to a basketball game with Ryan, that was kinda hard watching the boys run up and down the court, so many memories, so many games you played in, Tony the 3 point shooter, nothing but net.....I can still hear people chanting your name.Those were proud moments for me. You left me with so much Anthony, The bad are forgotten, the good will always be close to me. We all make mistakes, thats for sure. I think Ryan enjoys the games, wish he was older when you played, he knows the game so much more now. You use to get so frustrated. See you are every where. I miss you Bud, thats always. I guess I will come over and take your tree down. I hate to, its like the ending of something else. Love to you in heaven......Peace Close
Jan 7th, 2009 Very cold at home / MOM
Its me again...There is always so many things that I want to tell you, some times I feel like Im crazy. I mean I think you already know these things, they say you are always with me and I believe that. I know I am such a stronger person today then I was almost 3 years ago. I have changed alot since you have been gone from home. I sure dont take any crap from others anymore, you would be happy with that. It has certainly been a learning process for me.I realized that not only I have lost someone so very treasured, there are so many parents out there going through this ordeal and struggling through every waking moment. This makes you stop and think about others and the sadness that they are just beginning. I wish I could help them, in ways I know I have helped others. Some people I just can't hide what i truly feel inside and those are the people that I need to be around, not others that dont want me to talk or dont want to listen or think I should be over it, IT is nothing, IT will never go away, It will always be on my mind, no matter how many years go by or days, It is my son, It has a name, It is Anthony. My dear Anthony, you were no perfect angel here on earth, nor am I ,but in my mind today you are an angel. You are a good geniune person, who has a heart of gold. That will never be forgotten. I hope you have found some others up there, Like AAron Selitto, there are so many young people up there. Help them there like you did here. Peace Bud Close
Well here I am again. I really hope that whom ever is reporting things to my almost ex husband about this website will please stop. If you dont come to this site to light a candle for Anthony then dont bother looking. This is a special place for me to come and write what I feel, To have someone like you coming here is a disgrace. PLease get the point on who ever you are. If i knew you in person then i WOULD TELL YOU MYSELF AS i HAVE TOLD dANA.. yOU AND HE ARE VERY IGNORANT PEOPLE. Anyone that would come to a dead persons website for information is disgusting at the least. Hope ya got it!!!!!!!
New years day 2009 / Mom
Well this is it, the start of another year without you. Others cant imagine how I feel. Such a huge loss not having you here, to tell me the stories about going out and everyone that you would of seen. I miss all those conversations, you would be so excited about things, just little things. You would want to make everyone laugh and smile, that was your way. It would hurt you to see me being so down right now, But Anthony, I am really trying. Some days are better then others, but then again some days I dont want to leave the house, like I havent been outside now for 2 days. Its kinda depressing, being back home from vacation and then come back to REALITY..It has really hit me like a ton of bricks this time. I need something or someone to pick me up and make me smile. I will watch for you in my dreams tonight my sweet angel son, know that mom loves you beyond words.. There are no words to describe what I feel deep inside..It hurts!!!!! Close
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